Skip to main content

I Want to Be a Disappointment

I'm going to say something bold: 
I want to be a disappointment.  

 I want to be a disappointment to the plans others had for me.  I want to be a disappointing world changer.   I want to be a disappointment to the voices of my past telling me I can't, I shouldn't, or I won't.

Because I will.



I will dare to dream what I have never been allowed to dream.  I will dare to pursue that dream.  I will dare to be different than the plans others have allowed for me and the plans I have allowed myself.

 I will dare to be mediocre.  I will dare to never be heard.  I will dare to be the fine print instead of the headline.  I will dare to change my own world first before I change anyone else's.  I will dare to impact a handful of people instead of the masses.

 I will dare to fail.  I will dare to fly and land in the dust.  I will dare to dust off my butt and try again.  I will dare to try something new and hate it.  I will dare to disappoint myself.

 I will dare to love Jesus with abandon.  I will dare to stop trying to live right to earn His love.  I will dare to accept that He loves me for me, not for what I can do.  I will dare to enjoy the life my God gave me.  I will dare to think that perhaps He has not called me to be a "world changer."  

 I will dare to change myself.  I will dare to be vulnerable.  I will dare to defy expectations of greatness.  I will dare to be humble.  I will dare to not care what others think of me.

I will dare to be happy.

Labels:

Comments

Post a Comment

Popular posts from this blog

Response to a Tragedy

Six months ago, I was on the brink of suicide.  So much had happened in so short a time that I could not cope.  I had struggled with depression for so long that in the face of new trauma, I could see no other way out.  By the grace of God, I stopped midway through the act. Today, I received the news that a close friend of mine lost his sister to suicide.  She had been struggling with depression for years and it finally claimed her life.  I have been to the edge and back again.  Now, I see a different side of it - the side of my friends and family had my decision that crucial day been fully realized. The question those left behind ask the most, I think, is, "Why?"  Why would a beautiful flower like her feel the need to end it all?  Why are the rest of us left here to suffer?  Why did God not stop her?  What was it that outweighed her desire to remain with those that loved her?  Was there anything we could have done to stop her? ...
Post a Comment
Read more

What Brought Me Home

I found the floors in my house today!   No, I'm not remodeling the floors.  We just cleaned up and vacuumed.  It's funny how much an afternoon of cleaning can affect you.  I began the afternoon completely anxious, upset, and honestly...mean.  Very mean.  I was overwhelmed and felt like throwing a temper tantrum on the floor - which would have been impressive since this was before I found it. But I don't wanna clean the house!! As I started cleaning, the transformation was marvelous.  As the house transformed, so did my mood.  I went from tantrum to dancing. Many people comment on the fact that a messy house makes them feel depressed, in a bad mood, etc.  However, I think it was something else that made my heart so light - or rather, some one .  So I would like to express my public thanks to... My Husband There are so many things I could say about my husband.  I love bragging on him.  He deserves so much mor...
Post a Comment
Read more

I, Homemaker

Breaking News: Full-Time Homemaker Goes Public Why is there such a stigma around the old-fashioned homemaker? Why do we feel the need to say, "Well, I'm a homemaker, but I also..." What is so shameful in today's world about simply being a homemaker? Today, I decided enough was enough. I am a full-time homemaker, and I'm okay with that. No, not just okay, but happy about it! Here's why: I am not letting womanhood down. First of all, how arrogant I am to think that my personal choices for my private life somehow affects the course of woman as a gender. Second, how ridiculous it is for someone else to tell me what I can and can't do as a woman! This is directed at the chauvinistic voices of my past AND the ultra-feminist voices of my present.  If I want to be a career woman, by all means I have that right. In fact, there are plenty of examples of God-fearing women who worked outside the home in the Bible who were praised for their industry ...
Post a Comment
Read more